New York[mid-twi-light-night]

i had this thought
the other night
or day

knight or day.

the darkest hour
with the
fire truck
still blaring

i heard myself wondering:

what if
only if
we had the
same ambitions?

would we be together?

what if
i left this
city
to finally

come live with you?

would you
second guess
my intentions
then?

what if we moved
to the same city?

would we
hang out
have dinner
be happy?

is that (what) we need?

what if
you and i
shared the
same timezone?

would you always be
there for me?

this city
is
many things

popular
beautiful
happy
populated
busy
hip
artsy
-intimidating-

it’s me
i suspect
it’s something
more

i want everything
but this.

i wish
you never had to
check the time
before calling me

on the nights
your demons
haunt you.

i wish
i was there
to protect you
un-virtually

when did we grow
so far apart?

sometimes
some days
you disappear
only to return

as an apparition.
yes.
you cease to exist in my reality.

the problem
as i have identified
is:
there are two ways

when it comes to my friends.

either,
i get too
attached
and let go

i fear losing you.

or,
i forget
and eventually
let go.

you see the similarity?

i always
let go.
fate has
had it such

that running away from
the reality
has become more familiar
than facing it.

the past
the future

it has come a full circle,
why haven’t we?

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1 Comment

  1. Your tummy is a full circle. You know what’s let go when reversed? Og tel. Which makes no sense. Much like your let go. See the similarity. *This is so not a personal comment on this abstract poem/piece*. Pfft

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