-CHECK IN :: CHECK OUT-

Check In: (one word) Lost.

Hop on. Hop off. It has been 3 months since I last updated this blog, and instead of an apology post, I thought I’d ramp things up a little. The past three months have been a rollercoaster: of emotions, experiences and energy levels. As a freshman in college, I have been meeting some wonderful people and learning from each one of them. Even more importantly, I have been learning so much more about myself and who I am. 

And who are you really?

I suppose a lot of what I have experienced has to do with the city itself. Abu Dhabi has, as opposed to what I had expected, been a new story altogether. The anticipated sense of déjà vu never came about, and everything about this city has been new. Different. The first time. More specifically, I have been on a quest to find something. And, there is a lot that I have discovered. Some of this I can articulate, and others? They remain inexplicable. 

A mystery.

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IN SYNC: To those days that were standard, serene and beautiful. The breeze sent a shiver down my spine, and my eyes could see much more than my camera. Some of this serenity was captured, but most of it was simply perceived. Felt. Heard. Seen.

 

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FALL OUT: It’s all a blur, it’s all temporary. I see so much and yet, I see nothing. The bubble. And I leave. What am I afraid of? Of losing all of this, the people, the experiences and those moments. An illusion. That which is there today might die a painful death by tomorrow.

 

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TRIAL AND ERROR: We get closer to our goals. The pursuit for it gets harder, tougher, stronger. No, I am not lost. I am found. So much more to do, so much more to do. It’s never ending, this quest. I get close to the end, or what I call the end, and it’s time for a new beginning. Maybe it’s never truly the end. Maybe it’s this overlap that keeps me going, the fuel. Power on, do the next big thing.

 

I am tremendously grateful for this phase of my life, I really am. But, learning isn’t a one-way road. You take three steps forward, encounter a challenge, and move back one or two steps. You are assisted, advised and admonished. You are never alone.

As I tread along this slightly bumpy road, I sneak a glance at what I left behind. To what led me up to where I am. But, where do you want to be? I don’t know. Or maybe, like so many of us, I know. I run away from it, faster and faster and faster. And, it dawns upon me that learning isn’t a one-way road, and often, that which is unexpected comes from the other end.

Check Out: (one word) Found.

 

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